"Is this really going to work?" The next afternoon, I went to the department store and bought some sturdy ropes. After a whole night of searching online, although I couldn't help but fall asleep due to fatigue, I found that drug treatment and psychological treatment were the methods for detoxification. However, drug treatment seemed to only be available in drug rehabilitation center, and psychological treatment relied on one's own willpower to overcome addiction. However, even with willpower, it would be impossible to quit without external force.

So, I decided to tie An Lisi up tightly. After all, according to what I found online, withdrawal symptoms were extremely painful, and there could be severe symptoms during the withdrawal process that could even be life-threatening. This made me hesitate. What if I failed? Should I send her to a detoxification center? I was constantly wavering between these two choices. However, An Lisi seemed to have some aversion to going to a detoxification center. But as a non-professional and with only my own strength, could I really do it? I had no confidence, and I felt uneasy.

But before I knew it, I had already arrived at the door of the rental house where An Lisi lived. It wasn't a solution to keep hesitating like this. I decided to go in first and then figure things out. I knocked on the door, "An Lisi, it's me." After I finished speaking, An Lisi didn't come to open the door. I was puzzled, so I instinctively tried the doorknob and unexpectedly, the door opened easily. It seemed that An Lisi hadn't locked the door. I opened the door, and the room was still dim...

When the light from outside shone in, I vaguely saw someone lying on the floor, and there was a spot that looked somewhat red, like the color of blood. I felt something was wrong and hurriedly ran over, only to find that An Lisi seemed to be in great pain and was using a piece of broken glass to cut her wrist...

Because the glass wasn't very sharp, she only made a shallow cut. However, there were countless cuts on her wrist, or rather, her wrist was already a bloody mess. "Why are you cutting your wrist?" I helped her up.

"I want K powder... I want K powder..." An Lisi kept repeating.

"That kind of thing will harm you."

"But I feel so uncomfortable... It's like there are bugs crawling in my body... and it seems like they want to burrow into my bones..."

"Control yourself... Don't think about it."

"I can't... I can't... I'm begging you..." An Lisi looked at me with pleading eyes. She now looked like a pitiful person in the midst of a drug addiction. But I couldn't let it happen. If I indulged her like this, it would only bring her closer to death.

"An Lisi, please pull yourself together. I know you're in pain, but... you have to rely on your own willpower to quit the addiction."

"It's so painful... so painful... so painful... so painful..." An Lisi's voice became hysterical, and then she crazily used the broken glass to cut her wrist. Due to excessive force, blood splattered out. I was shocked to see this, but quickly reacted and snatched the glass from her hand.

Although my heart was pounding from this terrifying scene, I tried to regulate my breathing. "Give me... give me... give me... K powder." An Lisi's pupils dilated, and her face began to contort.

I didn't know how to respond. I could only remain silent, but she tightly grabbed my arm, and her nails seemed to be sinking into my flesh, causing me intense pain.

"Why... why... why won't you give me K powder... I'm in so much pain... so much pain... you're a bad person... a despicable person." An Lisi seemed to have lost her sanity. Then, she reached out and grabbed my neck. In that moment, I felt my neck being squeezed, and I felt my life was in danger.

I panicked... my brain couldn't think. An Lisi was clearly trying to kill me. I desperately tried to pry her hand off my wrist, and luckily, I had the advantage in strength, so I managed to break free and took a step back, escaping the danger. Besides my heart pounding wildly, I couldn't stop coughing.

"I can't bear it... so painful... so painful..." An Lisi let out a miserable cry and was about to pick up the glass shards that had fallen on the floor. If this continued, she would really end up dead. I didn't have time to hesitate or ask for help from others. Following the method I found online, I took out the rope and directly tied An Lisi up. Although she desperately resisted, I couldn't control her completely. But at this moment, I couldn't be gentle. I roughly tied her body tightly.

In order to prevent her from biting her tongue, I also used a cloth to cover her mouth. Then I put her on the bed and tied her arms and legs with ropes, pulling them towards the head and foot of the bed.

After completing these steps, I sat paralyzed on the ground. I didn't know how I managed to do it, but I knew that after I finished, my legs and hands were trembling. I looked at An Lisi, who was struggling but making less noise. I still didn't relax, looking at the injuries on my body caused by An Lisi's resistance. What have I done?

"Mmm..." An Lisi shouted, her hands and feet moving restlessly. It seemed that the ropes were not tied too tightly and could possibly loosen. So I stood up and tightened the ropes, causing marks on An Lisi's hands and feet. But there was no other choice. Her intense resistance would attract attention and loosen the ropes. I could only do this, but I didn't know why I felt so exhausted.

When I took out my phone to check the time, it was already 6 o'clock in the evening. I should have gone home by now, but... I looked at An Lisi, who was still resisting and struggling. It seemed impossible to go home. Although that was the case, I still needed an excuse. I called my mother... After the buzzing sound, my mother's voice came through.

"Youjie... Why haven't you come home yet?... It's not good to wander outside," my mother said jokingly.

"Who would wander outside..." I said impatiently, venting some emotions on my mother for no reason.

"Really? Then why haven't you come home... Mom has prepared dinner for you, waiting for Youjie," she said.

Now that she mentioned it, I did feel a bit hungry.

"It's getting dark soon... Come back quickly," she said.

"Mmm..."

"Why do I hear some strange sounds?" My mother seemed to have heard the sound An Lisi made.

"Mom... I'm staying at Su Yuqian's house tonight... That's it," I hurriedly said and hung up the phone. I was nervous and made such a thoughtless decision. My mother would definitely be suspicious, and why did I say I was staying at Su Yuqian's house? It was a fatal mistake.

Although I felt that I couldn't avoid a lesson, I sighed and looked out the window. It was already nightfall. The door had closed itself at some point. It was probably because there was a spring mechanism that allowed the door to close by itself when opened. Fortunately, this prevented others from hearing. It was fortunate in an unfortunate situation.

As the room became darker, I decided to turn on the lights, but I found that the light didn't work. Maybe it was broken. I had no choice but to find something else for illumination. I found some candles on a cabinet and reluctantly used them. I lit one, and the room became slightly brighter.

I leaned over the bed and looked at An Lisi. She was sweating profusely, and her complexion looked even worse. She looked at me with pleading eyes, as if hoping I could give her what she needed. But I couldn't do it. At this point, I could only force her to quit her addiction.

"An Lisi, believe in yourself. You can quit your addiction with your own willpower," I said.

"Mmm..." She continued to struggle violently, but I ignored it. This process was painful, but it might achieve the desired result.

An Lisi maintained this state until midnight. She stopped moving. Although I thought it was because she had exhausted herself from struggling, it seemed different. Her eyes closed... and it seemed like she had stopped breathing.

"This can't be happening," I looked at her in horror. Fear filled my mind in an instant. My hands trembled as I tried to feel if An Lisi was still breathing.

"No... she's not..." I didn't anticipate this situation.

"Why is it like this? The withdrawal reaction might lead to suicide, but I made sure to prevent such a thing from happening... Why did it turn out like this?"

I couldn't calm down anymore. I untied the ropes that bound An Lisi, and my hands kept shaking.

"Damn it... damn it..."

On one hand, I blamed myself for why my hands were shaking uncontrollably. On the other hand, I blamed the ropes for being tied so tightly. It was difficult to untie them, but I finally managed. Following the first aid techniques I had read in a book, I started to perform chest compressions below her breasts...

I desperately tried to perform this action, even though I couldn't do artificial respiration...

"Wake up... An Lisi... If you die like this, it's all my fault... I should have sent you to rehab earlier... Then this wouldn't have happened." I hated myself for making such a choice and causing such serious consequences,

...but An Lisi still showed no signs of waking up...

"So that means..." I couldn't accept this result... I had actually killed An Lisi because of my wrong choice...

"An Lisi... it's all my fault... it's all my fault." I couldn't control my tears from falling, and I kept repeating this sentence.

"That... that... your tears are so salty..."

"Of course tears are salty... huh?" Who was talking to me? Was it an illusion? Because of my overwhelming guilt and distress, I started to hallucinate.

I instinctively glanced at An Lisi and noticed that her eyes were open.

"An... An Lisi, are you alive? Or is it just my imagination?"

"...I don't think it's an illusion..." An Lisi smiled faintly, although her smile was so pale and weak. I didn't know if I was happy or sad, but tears kept flowing uncontrollably. Why was it like this... I'm supposed to be a boy... but I can't control it, so I might as well cry it out. All the grievances and sadness were released because of this.