[Bai Su's POV]

I really don’t know what Su Su is thinking.

I’m her brother, after all. Yet that brat actually used something so exaggerated to describe me…

Sighing, I thought of Little Fish—Yu Qingyu.

We’ve known each other well since elementary school. Back then, she and Su Su were desk mates. Su Su often dragged her home to play. Su Su was clingy, soft, and adorable—the perfect sister every brother dreams of.

But after that incident two years ago, we drifted apart.

She grew quiet. She’d avoid me, not even greeting me when we met.

We went from inseparable to silent.

…She avoided me. I avoided her.

Only recently, after our parents passed and Su Su was hospitalized, did things improve.

The Su Su who woke up seemed to have let go. For the first time in two years, she called me “Brother.” She talked normally, without coldness.

But maybe it’s just surface-deep. I sense something hidden in her heart—I just can’t guess what.

I opened my room door.

And Little Fish?

She’s Su Su’s closest friend.

Before Su Su distanced herself two years ago, Little Fish and I got along well.

Our houses are close. She visited daily for school. We saw each other constantly. Her cheerful personality (Su Su: ???) and our shared interests made us fast friends.

Honestly, my motives weren’t pure.

I naively thought if I couldn’t reach Su Su directly, I’d try indirectly. I aimed to befriend Little Fish to get closer to Su Su—but I failed.

Nothing changed between Su Su and me. Instead, my bond with Little Fish deepened.

I saw her as a true friend.

So I never expected… while I saw her as a friend, she wanted me?

Kids are just kids.

I sighed again, my mood tangled. I closed the door and sat on my bed.

I still don’t understand her thoughts.

She’s young, so she overlooks things. Though her knowledge sometimes feels terrifyingly vast, her depth shocking.

Yet she acts clueless about human ties. (Little Fish: ???)

She never noticed I already love someone.

I glanced at the wall facing me.

Last time Su Su entered my room, I reacted fast. I tore down the photos—leaving faint tape marks, but she didn’t notice.

After she left, I rehung them.

She never saw those photos.

They captured a girl’s journey: from a snotty crybaby to a lively, lovely teen.

Babbling, toddling, running—every stage framed in handmade wooden frames.

Like stars on pale blue walls.

No baby photos exist.

But this is best.

Seeing them, I feel I’ve shaped her life, played a vital role.

This girl is Su Su.

Bai—Su—Su.

My sister. My most precious treasure.

Her smile will forever light my path. No matter how broken this world gets, with her, I’ll keep living.

She’s my only family. My harbor when exhausted. The one I’ve loved since childhood.

This forbidden love—no start, no end I know.

But I hope, between start and end, I stay by her side. Never part.

So I won’t accept Little Fish’s confession.

That would be putting the cart before the horse.

I lay back.

The soft bed cradled me, pulling me down.

I stared at the ceiling.

What outcome awaits this forbidden love?

I don’t know. I fear facing it.

I can ignore society’s norms. Ethics feel outdated, meaningless to me.

They have merits, yes—but their flaws weigh heavier.

I don’t see incest as unforgivable. It harms no one but possibly our future child.

If we married and wanted kids.

Chinese law bans it to prevent genetic defects in offspring.

It restricts selfish love that ignores the next generation.

But it doesn’t forbid us from being together.

Su Su and I can choose not to marry. Not to have children.

This future feels possible.

I’ve imagined it: moving somewhere unknown, posing as a couple, living quietly.

That would be enough. More than enough.

But my real fear isn’t outsiders… it’s Su Su.

If I confess, how will she see me—a pervert loving his sister?

Will she despise me? Push me away forever?

Will she accept me, building a peaceful life?

Will she urge me to “fix” my love and walk away?

I dread imagining it. Yet I can’t stop.

I fear her leaving. Her hatred. Her abandonment.

So I stay silent. I guard her side, watching her grow… that’s enough.

Truly enough.

Because… I love her so deeply.

My sister. My adorable Su Su.

But the one I love lies beyond mountains and seas.

[To Be Continued]