59. Dialogue
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Her words fell like a pebble into still water; the girl ahead stopped cold, like a deer freezing in moonlight.

Am I right? You can’t hit me head‑on; you need to steer me, like a river bent by its banks?

Silence rolled in like fog; the other only watched Lucimia with eyes like winter glass.

Calm settled in her like a rooted stone; still seated, Lucimia pointed at the shadow pressing in like a tide. In theory, that shadow is your power; if it Devours me, I lose myself and you drive me like a puppet. Yet you don’t want me swallowed, like a fisherman cutting his own net.

She tapped her chin like a drumbeat and kept going; that shadow should be Olivya, right? She wants to eat me, like a wolf eyeing a lamb, because I keep crossing her plans. She wants my body to finish her scheme, and after I die, my second brother likely inherits, like a will sealed in ash.

She nodded to herself, like a sparrow pecking grain.

Mm‑hmm, that fits; and you, my second personality, belong to the Dark Deity’s side, like a root drinking night. So Olivya won’t let you win; I can feel the shadow’s pace rising like storm wind at my back.

A prickle ran down her neck like crawling frost; she looked back and saw the shadow at arm’s length, close as a knife’s edge. She triggered Instant Movement with a whoosh like a startled swallow; space slid under her feet like ice, yet her distance from the other her didn’t change, like two moons locked in the same sky.

With a few stones on the board, she mapped the field like a Go player reading the rivers.

The weight in her chest pressed like wet wool; she still didn’t know how to break free, like a fish thrashing in a woven basket.

Not quite, the other her said, voice falling like a pin in a quiet room.

No? I don’t buy it, she thought, doubt bristling like thorns; she shook her head, but the other cut in like a knife through paper.

To live, you Devoured Yuna and Desty, the girl said, each name cold as a blade under moonlight.

Stop! Irritation flared like a spark on oil; Lucimia raised her voice and sliced across the words like a fan snapping shut. You want to say I’m selfish, right? For my own life, I ate my friends, like a starving fox raiding its den. I thanked them on the surface and promised rescue, yet inside I smirked, relieved it wasn’t me, like rain missing one roof and drowning another.

You want to brand me as someone who only solves problems by eating friends, like a snake biting its own tail? That making friends is hoarding tools I can sell out, like cards tucked up a sleeve? You want to whip my guilt, make me shout not true, not true, until I crack like thin ice, and then you take the reins?

It’s all guiding thoughts, isn’t it? I know this routine like the back of my hand, like a map burned into bark. I’ll say this on record, like a vow in smoke: I will bring them back.

Her gaze hardened like cooled steel; she stared the other down, but that face stayed smooth as a mask of snow, without the slightest jolt, like a lake never rippled by wind. She looked just as sure, like someone who had previewed this scene and marked the beats.

That’s wrong, she thought, unease coiling like a snake; why no reaction, like thunder with no rain?

She went quiet for two heartbeats that felt like sand falling; her face darkened like a cloudbank, and her guard climbed like a raised drawbridge.

Right—she’s me, she thought, the idea clicking like a bead on an abacus; if I’d freeze at such lines, that would be off, like a drum with no echo.

What would she do? What would I do? The questions circled like hawks riding a thermal.

Lucimia held her tongue, letting silence spread like ink, to see what move the other would show.

After two more ticks that dropped like dew, the girl spoke: I think you misunderstood, she said, words calm as a still pond.

Misunderstood? Suspicion curled her lip like a cat baring a fang; she waited to see what medicine hid in that gourd.

Mm. I’m your subconscious, the girl said, nodding like a reed in breeze; I’m here to protect you, like shade over a sapling.

I never planned to say those things; you said them yourself, like someone nailing up a sign that screams there’s treasure under the floorboards. That means your deep self believes them, like roots drinking dark water. Take what you said—solve problems by eating friends, make friends as tools to sell—your deep self finds that persuasive, like law etched in stone, and so your heart burns, like a kettle left on the fire.

Her words landed with a familiar cadence, like footsteps she knew by sound; good, good, she thought wryly, worthy of me, like a mirror talking back.

Against her will, the logic nudged her like a tide; facts weighed on her ribs like a millstone. Twice, she had cut through traps by Devouring friends, like a blade paying for passage with blood.

Yes, she was clever, like a fox plotting a maze, and she could draft a way out, like chalk lines on slate. But to execute, sacrifice rose like a toll gate that wouldn’t lift.

Even in Jaha Town it was the same; many who trusted Nirael offered their lives without blinking, like candles feeding a shrine.

Shaken yet steady, she read the play like a script; You say all this to draw out my dark, to swell my feelings, to drown me in guilt, and push me into a spiral, like a whirlpool, right? Same old trick, different lantern.

The girl shook her head, the motion light as falling ash; she sighed like wind through bamboo. That’s why I say you misunderstand me.

Misunderstand again? she asked, eyebrows arched like bows; go on, show me where.

I don’t want your guilt, and I don’t want your madness, the girl said, voice cool as rain; as I said, I’m your subconscious, here to shield you, like a cloak in sleet, to keep you from inner torment, like a fire kept from dry straw.

The shadow behind you isn’t Olivya; it’s your inner darkness, like a storm you carry. That also explains why your Devouring failed, like a blade dulled by rust.

Oh? Then prove it, Lucimia said, arms crossed like closed gates; how do you prove you’re my subconscious, not a persona trying to replace me, like a cuckoo in the nest? Why can a subconscious walk out to shield me, like mist taking shape? Why isn’t that very torment the subconscious? Why isn’t it what took form, like thunder turning to hail?

Simple, the girl said, confidence smooth as polished jade; because I—or rather you—are clever and tough, like pine on a cliff. So the protecting subconscious rising first is normal, like spring grass outpacing rot.

Her patter flowed like a brook, neat and self‑consistent, like a puzzle that fits; it almost rang true, like a bell with no crack.

The truer it sounded, the less she trusted it; she knew the tricks in her own belly like knives in a roll. She’d used words like these in the Town of Tranquility against Elyssus, like silk hiding a hook.

Frowning, she thought for a breath, thoughts spinning like leaves in eddies; then she asked, Since you’re a protecting subconscious, how do you plan to protect me? How keep me from torment, like moths kept from flame? I figure letting me out of this space is the real shield, like opening a door to wind.

The girl nodded, the sound a quiet mm, like a note on a flute; Follow me and you’ll walk out of this zone, like stepping from mist into sun. And I’ll repeat this: I never meant to tease out your torment or brew your guilt. On the contrary, I want to make these acts reasonable and rightful; once justified, guilt dries up, like dew under noon.

As she spoke, the black‑haired girl who wore Lucimia’s face smiled, a softness like silk over skin.

But in Lucimia’s eyes, that smile crawled like a centipede in moonlight; it chilled her like a draft through a grave.