So boring, not because there is nothing to do, but because the real me is actually quite

I know it's boring, but I just don't want to go home, only because there is nothing to hold me there.

Like this, today ends just like any other day.

No dreams or pursuits, drifting aimlessly, nothing to ignite any passion...

Of course, I don't believe in any gods or ghosts myself, but everything that has happened to me has made it clear to me that there is a mysterious force constantly controlling me!

"Who am I really?!"

I always find this seemingly simple question confusing no matter when it is asked, it remains crystal clear!

Walking on this slope covered by cherry blossoms, my pale face takes each step with difficulty.

A faint pain lingers in my heart, and I can't help but bite down on my lip, soon, fresh red blood slowly flowing from the corner of my mouth, enough to tell me this is all too real!

"It's not that I couldn't catch up, it's that there was never a chance to chase after a mirage that never existed in the first place. Sorry for leaving you with unpleasant memories."

My sister's face glows prominently under the moonlight.

On her mature yet unpretentious face, therefore,

It's a white Christmas, and tonight the snow has started to fall gently, students who were cleaning gradually putting down their chores and joining in tonight's festivities.

Laughter and joy can be heard from behind the walls, but I am left alone and desolate on my side.

Since having my sister, this is the first time I've felt this way, even the accident that occurred after misunderstanding my sister didn't evoke such emotions.

"Huh...the front door is actually unlocked?"

As I pushed the door, I hit my waist on the edge of a table, a sharp pain shot through me.

"Ouch...ouch! Hey?!"

I wanted to barge in and confront the person, but there was nothing inside.

The classroom seemed eerily empty, not a soul in sight, it seems I was overthinking things.

"Well, considering the recent hallucinations, it all starts to make sense."

Wrapping my injured waist with one hand, I limped towards the window by the lectern, leaning out and looking into the distance.

"Although the rooftop view is better, this spot still offers a clearer view."

The school has had a history of several decades, rumoured to have been occupied by a farm before it was built here.

Later on, due to the poor profit from the farm, it was abandoned and eventually bought at a very low price by the chairman's father, who transformed it into a school.

Since the chairman Yu Nai's father was keen on antiquity, the school's style is old-fashioned, reminiscent of the Edo period's pursuit of simplicity.

And the green grove naturally became the most beautiful part of the campus.

"Thanks to Yu Nai, this land has regained a bit of vitality."

The cool evening breeze by the window feels particularly pleasant, and the tension in my face is finally released, allowing me to enjoy the peace of this moment.

After all these years, the resentment of living like the living dead, the shame of being trampled under by others for the past six months, has suddenly disappeared!

Although the exhaustion of body and mind has been left behind, the decision of whether or not to come to school today has always been a mystery in my heart.

Whenever my whole family goes on a trip every year, I always eagerly and happily set off, but in the end, I return home utterly disappointed. Even if this time I may have discovered something I've long felt lost, it may never be as cozy as today again, will it?

"Hah, humans are such easily deceived creatures. As long as they discover something new, they feel happy... It's really pathetic!" I sighed with some melancholy, then murmured to myself as I walked towards the back of the classroom.

"Ahem, it seems that only by resting on the bloodthirsty throne for a moment can I calm the sorrow deep within my heart!"

"Ding dong...!" Just then, the untimely ringing of the phone interrupted me, instantly pulling me back from my fantasy world to reality.

...Ugh!!

Oops, how did I end up talking and letting my old habit resurface again?

"Hello, who... Yuanhui?"

"Well, sorry buddy, looks like I won't be able to make it back tonight. Every half a minute I try to relax, those vile creatures confiscate my phone. I'll probably have to wait until after ten."

Yuanhui apologized over the phone.

"No way, let's postpone our plans to tomorrow night?"

"...Alright, tomorrow night then."

"Huh?" Yuanhui sounded somewhat puzzled and concerned, "Are you okay being alone?"

After all, as lifelong companions through adversity, we've shared our concerns and understood each other. He naturally knew all too well about my lack of friends.

While that may be true, I still replied calmly.

"It's... it's fine. You go ahead with your plans, I only joined in to pass the time. If I don't have any, I can find other ways to spend it."

"Oh, sounds like you're taking it well. See you tomorrow night!"

Ah--!

As I hung up the phone, I thought, was that smile just now... a bit forced?

Ah, going out once was definitely the right choice. If I had stayed cooped up at home, it might have made me sick!

But people attending the cultural festival are usually members of activity clubs or friends who lead very fulfilling and happy lives in reality (meaning they have girlfriends), right?

So, someone like me...

With no partner, not even a close friend, why should I go there to suffer?

"Someone like me shouldn't have stayed in this school..."

Leaning back against the bench, I closed my eyes and cried out in despair.

"Indeed, I don't belong here!"

"No, you can't look down on yourself like that; you should be proud of existing in this school, surviving in this classroom..."

Suddenly, a familiar voice appeared on my right side, could it be...!

"Hey, are you here to mock me or to encourage me to commit suicide?"

"Hmph, to proudly breathe the air here peacefully!"

"Um, that's not it. I wanted to say..."

Yukari had appeared by my side at some point, lecturing me earnestly. Her angry expression, for some reason, made me feel like my mood had changed too quickly!

"Hey, why are you alone in the classroom? Isn't your best friend usually with you?" Yukari turned her face away, trying not to meet my eyes, as if finding the atmosphere awkward between us, her clear eyes avoiding mine as if afraid of being discovered.

I still vaguely remember that look in her eyes, Yukari's memory loss has always been fake, right?

She clearly showed a caring appearance towards me, so how did she end up being diagnosed with amnesia or something…

"This makes me… makes me!!"

"Huh? What are you talking about, Juxi?"

"Have you had enough of pretending yet?"

She once again put on that hypocritical face of hers, spewing those insincere and cliché lies, which truly made me thoroughly angry.

The twilight at this moment froze, and the sky began to form a vast white cloud of snow again.

Before long, white stars began to fall from the sky, and the campus that had just been cleaned was immediately covered in heavy snow once more.

Although this year is a romantic white Christmas everywhere, but…

"Yes, but compared to back then, I…"

A hint of unfathomable sadness suddenly appeared in Yukari's eyes, leaving me stunned.

She shouted loudly at me, "If someone feels sad, they can vent it out anytime they want, that's the real me!"

"What…?"

Were all those precious memories left behind just a lie in the end…?

In an instant, I was overwhelmed with emotions, outwardly just cruelly abandoned by Yukari, but inwardly feeling abandoned by the whole world.

Because from the beginning, my world had been confined within an invisible net, unable to break free!

"It's all because of you, now… Huh?!"

What’s going on?

What was I going to say? Everything just felt too sudden for me to react in time.

The conversation ended before it even began, and Yukari in front of me became smaller and smaller until I couldn't see her anymore.

"I… I…!"

Feeling too overwhelmed, everything suddenly turned black before my eyes, and the classroom was instantly engulfed in darkness.

But the smile on Yukari's face grew deeper and deeper, until…

At the age of 15.

They stared at each other for a long time, then hugged each other and wept on the ground with regret, "Waaah, my allowance! That she-devil!”

"Waaah, why did I become brothers with a worldly treasure like you!" Yuanhui, who had lost all hope, groaned, his eyes burning with suppressed anger.

"What are you crying for, look at all the stuff I bought, I already accepted it as your brother!"

My attempt at comfort was futile as expected.

He always saw me arriving in a private luxury car, clearly coming from a wealthy family, so losing some money was nothing to him!

"Alright, brother, borrow you some money to get by!"

Saying that, I readily took out my wallet, pulled out a few bills, and handed them to the wailing Yuanhui sitting on the ground. Unexpectedly, this shameless guy was like a child who stopped crying and making a scene on the street….

Seeing more and more onlookers gathering around, I got furious, "What are you looking at!" After all, the two of us were steadfast friends who shared adversity, hah!

Defending my brother was a must! “Don’t you know my brother has had a little problem since he was a child?”

"What!?" Yuanhui suddenly blew a fuse, pointing at my nose and cursed: "You little b*****…" After glaring around for a second time, he pretended to be crazy and foolishly smiled, "Hehehe, Daddy,I want candy."