In the past few days, I did go through an experience that I can't talk about.

By using some nonsense and made-up lies to deceive the people around me, I also deceived myself!

"Well, let's go with the flow. After all, my own ideas can't be forced upon others."

Gradually, this kind of life slowly merged into my instincts,

Although to outsiders, these may all seem distorted, but it is the most true nature of human beings!

We only know how to escape reality blindly, becoming a version of ourselves that we do not wish to be.

The constant loneliness and being different from others made me enjoy this kind of heartbeat feeling even more uncontrollably, and finally, I locked myself completely inside the house, not going out at all!

Yukari also despised me.

She said she couldn't forgive me...

"Ah, the coke and potato chips are all gone?"

I casually threw the trash into the wastebasket and started playing games with a vigorous heart.

Until the next break time, when my father came home, he would bring me some snacks, also known as junk food!

Hobbies and interests are so monotonous - playing games and eating snacks.

"Ugh, I ate so much... so full..."

Rubbing my overindulged belly, I decided to take this opportunity to take a nice nap and anticipate the new snacks my father would bring me when he returned home at night!

But...!

After my father left, he never came back...

Living in the past, feeling unfulfilled, as long as I do my last duty as a good student, it's enough... what exactly do I want to achieve?

Did Yukari ever hint that I should do this?

What's the point of doing all these stupid things?

These are all my own thoughts, actually just my hypocritical mask.

Leaning on the corner of the wall, I stood up from the bed and gathered the courage to go to a forbidden area that I had always been afraid of (actually, it's the adult manga section).

Hesitation and unease made me hesitate to act, but I thought to myself, wouldn't this way not achieve the true goal of revenge?

So, my fate was changed by that book that was barely thicker than a homework textbook!

"Oh, it's a simple matter, just leave it to me!"

"Alright! It's really simple, right?"

I put all my hopes on Yuanhui and begged with a pitiful look.

And Yuanhui, who has always been defenseless against me, accepted it effortlessly.

"Mhm, as long as it's your matter, I, Sakai Yuanhui, will go through fire and water without hesitation!"

"Really? Then I'll leave the sweeping job to you!"

"Oh, I will do it properly. You just focus on recovering."

After packing up my bag, I hurriedly left the classroom.

The hurried departure made Yuanhui have a worried look on her face, unwilling to let go of the broom in her hand.

With a sad expression, she murmured as she watched me leave.

"Is this... really okay?"

Each of us has our own sadness, and his sadness is mine...

There's no need to have too much connection with him, but occasionally playing tricks on his intelligence is still enjoyable for me!

Unknowingly and from somewhere, I have gradually accepted these insane settings.

Sometimes, I even feel that it's quite cool to go against this extremely boring world!

My mood has brought me back to xiaoben, back to the stage of the second dimension. Perhaps this is the world that can drive me crazy until I am exhausted!

"Well, let's go crazy until morning!"

Awakening my whole soul, so I won't feel bored, won't feel sad!

I am really... so disgusting. I am a worm in this world!!

Destroying everything of mine, is it really possible to start over?

Everything feels like a dream.

Six months ago, the encounter at the staircase... sigh, if it wasn't for seeing Yukari sister at home every day, maybe I would have thought it was just a dream.

But now, think back to that time.

Yukari accidentally fell down the stairs and knocked me out.

Now, thinking back to her at that time... it was really comfortable there!

"Hehe, do you think you're the only one pretending to be stupid?"

Even though I was hit so hard, my head was clear for at least a minute. In other words, I witnessed Yukari sister putting something moist on my lips before she said those words.

"I, Yukari, declare that giving artificial respiration to my little brother does not count as a kiss!"

When I returned home and locked my room door, I secretly took out the zipper and took out my manga one by one.

"Hahaha, it's you guys. I really need comfort now."

The later we meet, the more we appreciate. Yo-ho-ho!

I, who occasionally make strange noises, greatly admire the works of this era.

"Hmm~ hmm! Has the art style become so powerful?"

"Wow wow wow, what a wonderful oppai, I really want to go there and witness it with my own eyes!"

"Tsk tsk tsk, this size... it's more than three times bigger than Yukari sister, hehehe, compared to her pineapple buns, it's just too flat!"

Crash--!

Huh, where is the thunder and lightning coming from?

Looking at the clear blue sky outside the window, I can still see a few white clouds. Apart from that, there are no dark clouds or lightning.

"Ah, could it be distant thunder... ah!"

"It's not distant at all!"

I was unexpectedly attacked from behind by Yukari sister wielding a ladle.

I turned around and accidentally collided with her while holding some indecent books.

Uh, I quickly hid those books under the bed with a backhand, but it's useless. Just from the waves of anger in Yukari sister's laughter earlier, I feel like she definitely saw what was inside the books.

Oh no, should I protect them (the books) or hand them over to Yukari sister and abandon evil... no! I must uphold my last dignity, even if it means breaking off all ties with Yukari sister. I will...

"Hehehe, it's fine to occasionally buy some little books, after all, you're a boy. But don't get too obsessed, okay?"

Yukari sister tied on her pink checkered apron, waved at me, and went downstairs to cook.

"Bye bye, remember to come down and eat, don't let the food get cold."

"Oh... oh!"

What just happened?! I answered twice with "oh," but I'm still surprised by her attitude.

My books... the thick and solid feeling in my hands... they're not... not lost!! They really survived!

"It's strange, really strange... Is her brain broken or something?"

Various circumstances are telling me that Yukari has changed, and it's making me feel a bit unfamiliar!

During mealtime, she used to pick at the rice in her bowl, occasionally glancing at me.

But this time, she was completely different from before.

There used to be a large portion of food on the table, and Yukari and I would eat together. But for some reason, this time there were two smaller portions!!

"Come and eat, the food will get cold and won't taste good..."

"They're all cold already?!"

Tears started to trickle down from under my bangs as I yelled.

But then I saw the indifference on her face and felt that my attitude was inappropriate.

"How can we eat like this?"

"If you don't want to eat... hehe, then don't eat."

"Okay, thanks."

What's going on?!

She talks as if it has nothing to do with her...! I forcefully suppressed my anger and went straight upstairs.

Yukari sat at the table, anxiously rubbing the rim of the bowl with the chopsticks, muttering to herself.

"Did you notice...?"

A few days ago!

Actually, there's nothing we can do about it. This is the first time in the past six months that we've been apart for so long. Usually, we only separate for a brief period of time for work and a short time on Sundays.

But it's already been a week, and if things continue like this...

I have a bad feeling. Maybe I should see a psychologist to relieve some stress?

"Um! Juxi... Juxi, maybe you're thinking too much..."

With a headache, I finished the water in the cup on the table. Let's just pretend that I'm saying these words to myself. The most important part is just beginning now.